haix.. 2nd time i missed service coz i overslept. must pray for God's forgiveness. duno why these few days extremely tired. can't exactly get to slp, yet can't wake up either. this week i kept misplacing my stuffs too, like my SCSF record book which is soooooo impt, then today i 4gt to bring my Navigators bk. luckily my discipler is a v nice sister, so we ended up sharing.

well, it's been such a long time since i've been sooo emo. i tld her a lot, but still, there were much more tt i chose nt to tell her, if nt i sure burst out crying like i did last night and previously. sometimes i do wonder, would things have been better if i cont'd to be spiritually blind. deep down i had a clear ans, definitely NOT. God had chosen me, and i must not give up the privilege of being His child just becoz of worldly issues. i've always heard of what many Galileans went through as the 1st Christian in their family. disowning, caning, ignoring.. all these were what the senior Galileans experienced. no matter what happened, God still blessed them. my discipler's grandma refused to talk to her for 3 years after her baptism too. i wonder when i would have my baptism?? pastor just asked me abt 2 wks ago..

talking abt ytd.. somehow i was just very sad when my gor said tt he's quite resistant to Christianity. seems like he's even worse than xh. so, tgt with all the probs tt are bothering me, i cried really hard. maybe it's time tt i release the stress, troubles, sadness, etc in me. but whatever the case, i'll not give up. i'll persevere on and pray for the salvation of ppl around me.

to my twin and xh: i'm really sorry for making u 2 accompany me go meet as.. i didn't expect things to turn out tt badly. i thought it would be nice for u [my twin] to come along since he's ur gor too. anyway, hope u wun take it to heart and i'm really sorry for making u feel so awkward n extra tt day. as for xh, bu hao yi si tt u were dragged in too. =(

tmr having A'level H1 Chinese. yet to practise on any papers, just read through the tb. anyway, all the best for all who are taking the paper. although i know tt a lot of ppl cnt be bothered with their MT, but still, must study for it!! hope tt i can do well for the paper too, though the results not as precious as HCL, but i must glorify God in all tt i do (this was what my discipler reminded me today).

supposed to get more daisies for our SCSF project too. we made quite a dumb mistake, ignoring the instruction given for the commercial preservative. haix. now still have to think of what kind of "vases" to use. and i need to quickly analyse the data too - fresh weight, water uptake, pH of solution.

tuesday having the 3rd rehearsal with mr hong. tt day thursday was quite ok. luckily i had prepared for Q&A, if not i would have been so freaked out. i really hope tt i can get A, though B seems to be the most possible. i'll just trust in God to give me what He deems best for me. may God also sustain my whole team.

still haven really decided what else to get for my twin's bday though i've chosen a bk tt was recommended by my sister gwyn when we went to sks on friday.

verse to meditate on: "trust in the LORD with all thine heart; and lean not unto tihne own understanding. in all ways acknowledge Him, and He shall direct thy paths." Proverbs 3:5-6